I think I have to finally admit to myself that I may NEVER be good enough to be in a relationship.
Maybe I'm just the type of person that will go through life all alone. I will have many failed relationships.. and most of the time the failure will be MY fault.
Maybe the "relationship thing" isn't for me..
Maybe "marriage" isn't for me..
Maybe "spending my life with someone else" isn't for me..
I certainly haven't found the right guy to do it..
I mean.. I may have found many "right guys" but I seem to just screw it up.. ALL THE TIME... and i'm not the least bit remorseful.. I mean.. I have my reasons for feeling the way I feel and doing the things I do.. why should I be sorry?
Seriously.. I mean.. what is the point? There is no point.. there is no point in trying to get into a relationship.. or keep a relationship.. if I'm just going to screw it up anyway.. and I have my reasons.. granted.. they not be good reasons.. but regardless.. I have my reasons..
Do you think there is a guy out there that WON'T give me those reasons to screw up a relationship with him? Is there a guy out there that won't resurrect my insecurities?
Can you help me find him??
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4 comments:
Try not to beat yourself up. Don't break-ups usually happen because a couple isn't compatible? It isn't generally someone's fault (cheating being one obvious exception).
Sounds like you haven't decided to settle, which is good. You should strive for a partner that you are truly compatible with, because in the end, if you aren't, neither of you will be happy.
If you have broken up due to some commitment phobia, I can see where you'd feel at fault. That being said, all phobias can be overcome; you have to find the power to overcome it.
Best of luck to you.
Give him time and he'll find you.
Awww, you'll find him just when you aren't looking. I had found mine, but not first until I found myself. My likes, dislikes and certainties. Once I was comfy with myself - and what I wanted - the rest fell in place. I wish the same for you.
Anyhoo, I haven't stopped by since Dr. John stopped having blog marathons - but am today to remind everyone:
"Roasting Dr. John Comment-athon".
It's nearing Dr. John's birthday and this year it falls on Thanksgiving! (November 22nd)
Last year we Roasted Dr. John and I've been thinking, what would be the perfect Birthday present for him this year?
COMMENTS!!!! Lots and lots of them! From those he knows, to those he doesn't know. From all over the world and throughout the blogosphere. Let's fill his inbox with Happy Birthdays.
How to do it: Be creative, he loves creativity. Post a blog on his birthday (Thanksgiving 11/22) dedicated to Dr. John and wishing him a Happy Birthday. Make Dr. John your "link of the day" and encourage your Bloggy Buds to stop by and leave him a comment and a Happy Birthday wish.
Perhaps, even getting them to join in on the fun! Create your own Pigeon Falls photoshop as you imagine it, a post on trains, design and describe the perfect fortress or dare to post your entire blog in Finnish.
Leave a linked PS note when you visit other blogs this day to guide peeps over to say Happy Birthday to a super fantastic guy.
Use your imagination and have fun with it. See 'ya next week!
I am glad you can blog anywhere but I couldn't leave a comment there. I don't know why.
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