2008.. only a few days left!

I can't believe we are on the last few days of 2008. It seems like only yesterday we were ringing in the new year.. now the whole year has zoomed on by.. and we're ready to start 2009.

I used to take the time to re-evaluate my life and how much it hasn't changed or progressed at all.

This year is different.. because I do feel changed and I do feel like I've made progress..

So.. there's no need for an in-depth evaluation and some time to feel sorry for myself.. because I don't..

I'm excited about what's to come in the new year. I'm excited for what 2009 will bring me.. I'm sure there will be the ups and downs of time.. and I know that I will come out of it standing tall..

It just seems like sometimes the years seem to go TOO fast..

So.. now the time just drags..

Funny how time plays with your head.

You know that the time doesn't speed up or slow down.. but when you want things to slow down.. or you want time to speed up.. your brain makes it seem that everything is moving in the opposite speed you desire.

Am I even making sense?!

I just feel like I'm not all here right now..

Maybe I just miss him a lot.. but I know that as the time passes.. it will get a little easier.. and then the weeks will fly by and he'll be home before I realize..

Looking at the calendar makes it seem like such a short time.. but it's feeling like eternity.

I just want him to stay safe and healthy.. and have a good time..

Popped back into YouTube!

Too fast..

The day is speeding by way to quickly.. and the faster time goes.. the faster we get to dropping off boyfriend to the airport for his trip to Asia.

Pray for a safe trip for him.

Pray that he comes back in one piece.. healthy.. and full of reasons to miss me like crazy..

Three weeks..

I just want him to stay safe..

Precious and few..

Are the moments we two can share....

Hmmm.. why do I have that song stuck in my head at 12:30am!

I suppose I'm having a hard time sleeping because I pretty much slept a good five hours when I got home today.

Bad reaction to drinking a lot of wine during Mass today..

Had to consume the left over consecrated Blood of Christ.. and well.. in it's wine-state.. the sulfites and whatnot are still present.. and.. well.. that never sits well in my system.

Passed out bad at the restaurant we were eating in.. and had to be shipped off via ambulance to the emergency room to make sure that everything was ok..

Ended up with a migraine headache.. they gave me some strong headache meds.. and some benadryl.. which both BURN going into my system via an IV drip.. yow!

Was discharged.. and went home and crashed on the couch.. woke up for a bit with the ever-so-caring boyfriend called to see if I was really ok..

I am ok now.. kinda awake.. but I know once I shut this computer down.. I'll fall asleep...

About three more days til Christmas.. and I have barely gotten anything done!

One year ago... yesterday..

Flip a coin..

Heads, you lose.

Tails, you lose.

Either way, you lose.

Either way, you're just unhappy.

Time heals all wounds, but the scars stay forever.

You live, you learn. You learn not to love again. You learn not to trust in love again. You learn not to fall again.

One right after the other.. failed.. failed.. failed..

"It wasn't meant to be."

"He wasn't the right one for you."

"You'll find that right guy especially when you stop looking."

You start to see through all those lies. They no longer make you feel better. You'd rather be alone.

Why would I get entangeled in such a mess again?

Why would I subject myself to all the hurt and the ups and downs again?

It's like smoking. You start to know that it's bad for you, yet you still do it and you still get involved. You know very well the affects it has, and you know so many people hurt by the affects. Yet, you still do it.

Not anymore.

I'm done.

I can't get hurt anymore.

I can't cry over another guy anymore.

I can't get my heart broken anymore.

I can't trust any guy anymore.

I'm done.

I'm done for good.

I'm done.

Funny.. and here I am.. with a new relationship.. with a new guy.. who I am hoping will be the last guy.. and I thought I was done..

Let's hope I'm not done.. let's hope that.. in a sense.. I am done.. done getting hurt.. and looking for someone new..

We can only pray..

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas!

Let the frenzy begin..

Today.. er.. tonight will be busy.. gonna start on my annual "goodie-making" marathon. This year.. it will be easy.. just a bunch of fudge. It's good fudge.. fudge made with love.. and that's the best kind of fudge there is.

I love making home-made gifts to give to friends and family. For me.. putting that extra effort into making something from scratch just shows how much I appreciate having that person in my life. I hope that they realize that too.

I'm also making some red velvet cupcakes and filipino pastry.

It's going to be hard work and every year I get tired.. but every year I look forward to doing this.

It's Christmas time, people!!!!

Could time move any faster?!

I'm at home.. with mounds of laundry.. and tons of shopping.. and a baby I'm about to babysit in an hour or so..

O... m... g...

I'm about to have a nervous breakdown.. well.. not really.. I just feel very overwhelmed by my laundry right now.. especially since I'll have my boyfriend here this weekend.. gotta get the room ready for him to inhabitate..

This laundry is going to be death of me!

No idea!

December is just zooming by and I haven't gotten anything Christmas-related done. It's my last week of school for the year and so I am busy trying to wrap that up so that I can concentrate fully on all that I need to do for the Christmas stuff.

I have a boyfriend this year so I have to figure out what I am going to get him. I really have no idea. We are considering just going out somewhere nice and having just a little Christmas outing. But as nice as all that is.. I would really want to give him something that he could unwrap and stuff..

I just have no idea what that something could be.

Busy.. busy.. that I may have to just skip out on all the choir extra-curricular activities because I do have to juggle my time for the boyfriend. It's not like my past boyfriends where we lived close enough to see each other any time we wanted. This is different. We actually have to make time and make it a weekend event in order to see each other.

I have to be able to free of some time for that.

It's just Gods way of making sure I have time for someone and to make sure I know how to work through a relationship instead of just living it by and just being so blah about it all..

It's worth it..

Now.. any ideas for Christmas gifts for him??!?

You know that's cute!

That's us from last Saturday night. I took it with my camera phone because we both forgot out digital cameras. Silly us. Thank God my new phone has an awesome flash on it or we'd never have this picture.

Cute!

Fun.. fun.. fun..

I was in San Diego this weekend.

Went to go see my boyfriend that I haven't seen for a month. Yay!

We kinda celebrated our six month anniversary and then went to his company christmas party and just hung out.

It's always so much fun spending time with him.. it's a shame that he and I live far apart and are at times too busy to spend many weekends together..

Well..

It's ok.. we make the most of it.. and we have a great time.. I just wish that we'd have more great times more often.

He gave me the box set of the complete FRiENDS series.. it's awesome.. I had the DVDs per season.. but as he was borrowing them.. he realized that some of them are scratched.. so.. I was planning on buying the whole series myself.. but he beat me to it..

Sweet.

He makes me happy like a high schooler in a new relationship..

Same old excuse.

Non-stop.

Busy.

Tired.

You have NO idea how much work I have had to do these past few weeks. Things have just begun to slow down to the point that I have been able to take my breaks. But just when I thought that I will begin to have control over things.. I just get word that my workload is going to get so much more busy again.

I'm not really complaining. I like what I am doing.. it's just those several samples that don't seen to work as well as the other ones do. Not every sample runs smoothly and quickly. That's frustrating but it's nature.. it's the natural flow of things.. not all flow smoothly..

I guess the business works out for me because it gets my mind off of all the tragedy I've had to deal with in the past few weeks.

Earlier this week, we found out that one of the doctors in our laboratory system.. not our own branch lab.. was found dead..

Last week.. my friend died..

The week before that.. a family friend of my boyfriend had died..

Death comes in three's.. doesn't seem to fail..

God bless their souls..

Keeping things light today..

All I have today is a survey that I found on a Myspace bulletin.. I filled it out.. posted it there.. and now.. I'm posting it here..



Filling the time..

Who was the last person you hugged?
*Probably some friend.. or some choir person..

What were you doing at midnight last night?
*Waiting for Joe to stop studying so we could talk for a lil bit..

Parents separated/divorced/married?
*Married

Last time you saw your dad?
*Just.. right.. now!

Do you like coffee?
*It runs through my veins..

What do you drink in the morning?
*Nothing..

Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
*I always have to be on the right side..

What's your favorite color skittle?
*Red.

Do you drink water daily?
*I gues..

Where are you?
*At home..

What do you want most right now?
*To see my boyfriend.. awww..

Three names you go by?
*Rachel.. EEEE.. Ninang..

Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night?
*Nope..

Any plans for tomorrow?
*Work.. home.. bible study..

What are you doing tonight?
*Homework..

Do you have a best friend?
*Two awesome ladies!

Last kiss?
*LAST MONTH.... hopefully the next one is this weekend..