Disheartened..

It's a little disheartening to know.. that no matter what I do.. and no matter how I try.. I will never make that woman happy with any decision i make on my own..

If the decision I make caters to her.. and if i do that for the rest of my life.. then.. she'll be happy.. but i'll be miserable and sheltered.. and never know what it would be like to live my own life.. and make decisions on my own.. or know what it is like to live.. at all..

She lets my brother do it..

Why doesn't she ever let me??