There are parts of me that just wishes that the world would just end for me.. parts of me that just wants to end my life.. and forget the world.. parts of me that don't feel like this life is just worth living anymroe.. parts of me that just don't feel like I can go on this way..
There are parts of me that just wants to embrace the world fully.. to take it all in and to make the most of it.. parts of me that want to change the existing world as much as i can.. to make it easier for the people that have it worse off than i do.. this is the part of me i love the most.. and wish would just take over the previous part..
Most of me wants to nurture.. children.. my own children.. to be a mother.. to raise a family.. to tend a home.. to be "grown-up"
Some of me wants to continue my intellectual journey.. go to school.. move farther up in my career.. make a name for myself..
Some of me wants to be an entertainer.. to resume that persuit I started back in college.. with an agent.. auditions.. gigs.. things to constantly keep me on a stage.. but the rest of my parts.. they hold this part of me back.. so i've compromised with lots of community theater..
There are other undefined parts.. and i have yet to decipher want they are.. and what they really want..
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I am so tempted to say that you should pull yourself together. In reality I think that most of us are like you.
The evil in this world makes us want to pull away but the good children and activities we enjoy pull us back.
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