The ladies..

Just wanted to post a picture of my best friends and I from my birthday party on Saturday. I have a new hair cut.. it's short.. unexpectedly short.. but I love it nonetheless..

Enjoy!

Tired is as tired does..

I am tired.. I'm always tired.. hahah..

Well.. it's back to reality after my pretty whirlwind birthday weekend. I gotta tell you.. celebrating the birthday is sooo much better than lamenting the birthday..

Why did I spend so many years avoiding my birthday?! LOL..

Well.. next year is the big 3-0.. minus 1.. haha.. I got that idea from my coworker.. he was all.. "how was your big 3-0.. minus 2?!" I told him I'm sooo using that as my thing for next year's birthday.

Now I gotta start thinking about the holiday season and who and what I am going to get for everyone and what's going to go on.. I decided not to do the ACT thing with my friends this year.. because it's in a farther facility.. and it's still $100 which I am trying to save money for upcoming student loans I will start paying back in 2010.. and I don't wanna find myself in a financial bind over it.. so I start now.. and who knows what kinda things will come up..

I look back at my life.. this past year.. and I can see how much I have changed.. how much more positive I am about everything..

How I have finally learned to "let go.. and let God" in my life.. how.. I can find happiness despite everything seeming so negative at times..

I know that life is always going to be an uphill climb.. but I know that once I get to my destination.. I'll be able to look down on it all.. and it will all be so amazing!

Here we are.. doomsday?!

Well.. it's my birthday and despite the fact that I am sitting here at work.. it's actually been great so far...

Went to dinner with the family and "the boyfriend" came out just in time to have dinner.. and the whole fam went to go watch that new movie "Eagle Eye."

It's actually an ok movie.. and it makes me think twice about how much stuff I reveal about myself on the internet.. lol.. scary thought.. watch the movie and you'll see why..

Then I went home and opened the gift that Joe got me... a Wii Fit.. which is perfect because I had been wanting it for sometime now.. so I ended up staying up til 2am playing and stuff..

Now.. I'm at work..

Which shouldn't be that hard.. if I just get off the computer and get some work done! hahaha!

Happy Birthday to me.. and I hope to have loads of fun tonight!

Tomorrow.. you're only a day away..

Today is my last day of twenty seven.. tomorrow starts the first day of twenty eight.

Exciting.

I start off the day at work.

What a way to spend a saturday birthday.

I'm definitely not complaining. I took yesterday off cuz I was.. and kinda still am.. sick.. so working on Saturday makes up for it a little bit. Can't complain.

Gonna eat a lot these next few days... dun.. dun.. dun..

Hope to have lotsa pictures when the weekend's over!

Now you know that's cute!

You give your hand to me..

One day at a time.. I guess that's just how I'm going to deal with it.. I mean.. I've said it before.. maybe on another blog.. but I'll have to say it again..

I'm know he's here today.. happy he was here yesterday.. and I pray he'll be here tomorrow..

I shouldn't think about it anymore.. but I wasn't kidding when I told him that this will now loom over us omniously until we figure out what to do..

The things I know is that he makes me happy.. takes care of me like no other guy has really ever done.. and I can honestly say that is the truth.. I know that I will be hurt if we decide that we shouldn't continue..

But I shouldn't think about it.. I should just be happy about the present.. and not think so much about the future.. but he's like me.. always thinking ahead..

I used to get told about that.. other guys hated that i always thought ahead.. and always thought of the worst case scenario.. now he does the same thing.. and I'm trying to just think about the present and be happy about the present.. cuz right now.. this is all we have..

The present is all we have.. to touch.. to feel.. to experience.. the future will come but no one knows what it is going to bring.. so we have to deal with the now.. and trust that the future will come and give us something to look forward to..

So.. from this point on.. tho' I worry.. and tho' I think.. I have to remind myself that there really is..

No day but today..

Sheesh.. I knew that making RENT one of my favorite musicals of all time would pay off eventually..

The buzzkill..

Well.. it's happened..

He and I had "the talk.." and that could never be good.

I mean.. we both kinda knew what we were getting into when we first started this.. long distance.. limited time.. ultimately.. we either make.. or break.. when the time came.. if we "make" then one of us or both of us.. pretty much has to uproot their lives for the sake of the relationship.. if neither of us are really willing.. then.. we have no choice but to "break".. right?

Five months..

I guess it's sorta early to really expect one of us to be willing to uproot for the other..

But still..

Scary thought to think I may actually lose this guy in the end..

I really don't want to. I may have said that about pretty much every single guy I've been with.. don't we all?

I want to say he's different from all the other guys.. but I say that all the time too..

I will say this..

At this point in my life.. I know he is who I want to be with.. whether it be for the long term or the short term.. I know I want to be with him.. no one else.. and that's that. It scares me to think he could just be another one to add to my list of failed relationships.. but if that's the way it's gonna be.. do I really have any other choice?

I just pray that everything will turn out the way it's supposed to.. that we find our answers.. and that i might hopefully find the "happily ever after" i have always been searching for.. whether it be with him.. or anyone else..

Pray.

The Lord definitely provides..

Last weekend, the Men's Cursillo class only had about 11 candidates for the weekend.. just a few candidates short of the usual goal that we need to have the weekend.. but we were going to have it anyway..

Today.. there will be about 16 candidates experiencing and living out their Cursillo weekend.

The Lord definitely does not disappoint. He may keep us on our toes, but he definitely provides.. always.

Praying for a successful Cursillo weekend and may all those that are helping provide the candidates with an experience they may cherish for their lifetime.

Ten days..

Let the countdown begin.. ten days until I turn 28.

I'm not bitter.. I'm actually kind of excited. This is the first time in many, many years that I am actually going to celebrate.. with friends..

It's my countdown to 30 party.. celebrating the last few years of my twenties..

It'll be fun to celebrate it with the friends that I cherish most in life.. and the boyfriend whom I hope will someday be someone I can look back at smile upon...

It helped a lot that my actual birthday fell on a Saturday this year.. it was more motivation.. I mean.. how often does one's birthday fall on a weekend.. why waste a good weekend night?

Right?

I hope you had the time of your life..

San Diego came and went and now I'm back home with pictures and memories to last a lifetime.

We all had fun.. the family.. the signficant others..

The weather was good.. and I got a little sun burnt but it's nothing to cry over..

I am still kind of tired and in "vacation mode" but I'm quickly snapping out of that with all that I have to do here at work today.. it's kinda hard to stay lazy when there are a million things sitting on my deck waiting to get done.

I am kind of hungry so I'm thinking of an early lunch. I fell asleep the minute I got home yesterday.. I only intended to stay in bed for a little bit, but ended up staying asleep til pretty much this morning.

It felt good to get all those hours of sleep.. but it meant that I ended up skipping dinner last night.. oops..

I'm paying for it now cuz I am starving.

I think I'll try to post some pictures up here like I used to of the various memories I made this past weekend.. hopefully I don't get lazy or anything.. hahaha.. I can't help it.. another class is starting up again.. and so.. my time will be occupied by reading and paper writing again.. boo..

All that glitters is gold..

The day is dragging.. on and on and on..

I want it to be five o'clock already.

I feel like a kid that is anxiously anticipating the hours til they get to go to disneyland.. i remember being like that.

I remember being like that commercial where the kids are lying in bed wide awake cuz they are too excited to sleep. That was me.. then.. and now.

I guess the day isn't really draggin on as slow as I'm letting on. It's moving.. just not fast enough.. that's all.

I get to see "boy" after two weeks of not seeing him. I was watching "A Walk To Remember" last night and for some reason it really, really, really made me miss him. Its not like he's absolutely perfect like the lead male character.. I don't know.. I just missed him after watching it.

That's all.. nothing profound behind it.. I just did.

Maybe I should have asked for a shorter day. Nah.. I don't want to lose any hours because we are so short-handed here in the lab.

I guess I gotta do what I gotta do..

San Diego.. here we come.. well.. tomorrow!

So.. the fam vacation starts tomorrow..

And to clarify for some people that may be reading this..

I had scheduled this weekend a few months ago.. totally forgetting that "boy" was going to be out of town with his friends. When he found out, he kind of whined at me for scheduling it for that particular weekend.. but what could I do.. that was the only available weekend I had...

He had every intention of still going on that trip.. until about two weeks ago.. when he started having second thoughts..

Up until this past Monday.. he was undecided and I had put it in my head that he was going to Vegas.. until he told me he was staying..

I don't know if that really means anything.. i am glad he's gonna be there.. so I'll just leave it at that!

Conversations..

It's amusing.. the kinds of conversations you can have with a person.

Take for instance.. the "significant other.."

Topic of conversation: bedtime.

I don't know how or why it got started.. it just did.. he's saying that he wouldn't mind being the kind of couple that would turn in at 9pm. I mean.. really?

He's only two years older than me.. why is he acting like that?

I guess I wouldn't mind an earlier bedtime, I mean.. that means more sleep and more refreshed feeling in the morning..

But honestly.. that would only work if there were no kids in the picture.. at least no babies..

That would be sooo unfair if he'd continue to go to bed at 9pm while I have to tend to a child with changing sleep patterns..

Well.. that's too much "future" thinking..

But sheesh.. I'm from a family who's bedtimes range from 11ish pm to 1ish am.. we arent early sleepers.. we are early risers.. but not by choice.. we like to sleep in..

He's just silly..

Tho' many times..

I am bored at work. I currently have nothing to do until someone does something to give me some samples and then I can get to work.

As for now, I am trying to walk around and looking busy because I hate being idle at work.

I work in a lab and there should always be something for me to do.

Today is just one of those rare days.

This weekend is the family trip to San Diego. My boyfriend lives in San Diego. I had accidentally scheduled this trip to occur with he would be out of town with some guy friends of his.

Apparently, he's deciding not to go on that trip and spending the weekend with me and family.

I know I shouldn't be blogging it because I don't want to jinx it, but those are the plans so far. I won't be ecstatically happy until I actually see him that weekend. As of now, anything goes and he could suddenly be talked into going on that trip and then I'm left without a partner cuz my brother is bringing his girlfriend and the my parents have each other.

Well..

If he does spend the weekend with me and the fam over his friends in Vegas.. that kinda says a lot.. doesn't it?

Sleep.. sleep.. sleep..

I would love to be asleep right now.

I'm finishing up one last chapter before I can do so. I just need a brain break.

It's my last week of this class. I get a week off. I cherish these weeks off. The six week classes go by soo quickly. I can't believe it. It seems like I was JUST complaining about this class during week one. Now I'm almost done.

I think after this I have eight more classes.

It's faster than I thought. I think I can survive this.

It's not so bad when I think of it in that sense.

Hmm..

Welcome to September..

We have now entered my "birthday month.."

September.. a whole month of birthday fun.. haha.. I wish.

My birthday is towards the end of September and looking at my calendar.. the whole month is pretty booked. I can't believe how fast time is going.

Twenty-eight.

On the twenty-seventh.

That's it folks.. we're counting down my 20s.. gonna party into my 30s..

I gotta make the most of this.. you only have your 20s once in your life!