Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Pissed... pissed... pissed...

Argh.. i hate working here! It's just sucks.. i mean.. what work place has paychecks that friggin bounce and get returned.. it's just an absolute blessing that i have all that money in the bank and that i don't live off of paycheck to paycheck because i would be absolutely screwed.. my credit will have been at a bad status... and all hell would be breaking loose... i am soo frustrated and pissed off by all of this.. this is absolutely insane... there is no explanation for any of this madness... none at all...

So i'm thinking of getting into substitute teaching.. i don't know how fruitful it would be.. i'd be doing that instead of doing this and then wondering whether or not the damn check went through or not... and plus i'd be in a classroom already.. i'd get classroom experience.. i'd be able to be in a classroom... wow.. that's cool.. and then i'd be able to go to school and be in a classroom.. gaining experience.. but i'm going round and round in circles with the reasons.. my main reason for wanting to sub teach is to just get my ass outta here already.. geez... and so maybe then i'd be able to get my teaching stuff done faster..

But.. it is a good idea financially... will i be able to make enough money to support all the bills i have to pay and the credit cards i have to pay off and to be able to save for the wedding... is it a good money idea to move from a steady (relatively steady) flow of income to something as sporadic as substitute teaching that only gets paid per job and some of it could be volunteer??? Is it... is it??? I need help.. i need guidance.. i need help help... really someone.. anyone... help!!!!

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