Scattered thoughts..

There isn't much to say at the moment.. I need to vent some feelings out and I really don't know where to start.. I tried about eight times to start this entry.. and everytime.. I deleted it because it just didn't sound right..

I'm not insecure.. I'm not depressed.. I just have things on my mind that need to get out.. I'm confused.. maybe worried.. a little scared.. I just know I'm not the me I was this weekend..

I'm just out of sorts again..

I was settled last week.. this week.. I'm not so sure..

I feel complacent.. I need movement.. I need something exciting to come.. move me forward..

I started this year so pumped... I started this year so inspired that things were going to change for the better..

My impatience is getting the best of me as I look at the end of January and find that I went no where..

I really need to learn to just give myself time.. I thought I trusted in God and His time?

Sometimes I seem to forget that.. this is that "sometime.."

I need a day out.. I thought I got that in Vegas.. and I did.. but as much fun as I did have.. there were places to go that I didn't go to.. things to see that I didn't see.. we just ran out of time..

And that's the thing I always feel like I'm running out of.. time.. there is never enough time to get all that I want done.. it's discouraging.. when it should press me to move on.. and to work hard to get as much done as I can.. should it?

That should be my new outlook.. life is short.. time is scarce.. I gotta make the most of the time I have.. work hard to get as many things done as I can.. and look back and know that even if I didn't finish it all.. I sure did a lot with my life.. and for that I should be proud..

If it were only that easy.. but lets work on that..

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