I am not Justyn.. Justyn is not me..

Blasted blogger won't let me include a picture in this entry. There's some sorta error. So now, this will be a pictureless entry. I hope they fix it soon.

So.. I have to remind myself. I am not justyn. justyn is not me.

He and I are always bound to have differences of opinion. He and I are always going to things a little differently. Granted, there are lots of moments where we agree and there are lots of moments where we do things the same way. But that was never a 100% guarantee.

I have to trust that his actions are truly to benefit him and us. I can't be in full control all the time. That's just not right. I'm not a control freak... or maybe I am.. but I should not let that truly control me and my relationship. I do trust that he knows what he's doing to make our lives better.. to make his life better.. he loves me.. and I know he won't let me down..

But he has to do that IN HIS OWN WAY.. not my own way..

Ok.. am I calm.. am I calm???

I don't know why I do that.. I guess it's the "spoiled brat" in me that demands things done my way.. or all hell will break loose..

I have to trust.. and I do trust.. that things will work out.. and that it's ok for people do things differently than I do.. especially my fiance.. he is still a separate person from me and we are to work as a unit.. not as two people that do things the way I do..

But sometimes.. and youre so gonna kill me.. my way is faster.. his is just the run-around before he gets to the point.. so.. sometimes I feel like my way is better..

But I shouldn't let that really kill me if he decides to do it his way..

Argh..